In a sudden, I think of you again. I know i shouldn't. Sorry~ But I just can't help myself from missing u. I know you will never think of me anymore, maybe I am just another trespasser in your life. Every time I talked to u, I always hope we will just stay like this forever. Nothing ever comes true because every1 changes, including me. I have changed, but my love that I always have for u never change. Sorry, I will never show it anymore. This is because it doesn't matter anymore since the day you had left.

For now, my heart is aching, aching for you? Perhaps. Everyone loves to be loved, no one will ever like to be hated or isolated. In this relationship, it's all my fault. My love for you is not strong enough to undergo all the obstacles. I am so sorry. I had lied to you before, but you never know. Within my heart, I had been too selfish in wanting you. I know you are such a lovely and kind person to all and that is the reason why I always wanted to be with you. I was so afraid in losing you in my life, but i guess i have lost you forever.

After you have left, I kept asking myself: Why did I still fall for you even though there is so impossible for me to be with you? And, now I have got the answer.

The answer is: You are some one I dream of since I was young. You are my prince, my knight and you are the one that only appears in my dream. You own everything that I wish my future husband to have - Rich, smart, kind, handsome n etc......................

But now, I have let you go, set you free forever. This is because I know I will never earn anything in this relationship. I have lost everything, even my my heart. Never again I will want to fall for anyone in this life anymore. So, as the time pass by, I will erase our memories and set us free. I just want to set myself free from pain.

B,
Why don't you tell me you already have some one by your side now? Even though it’d hurt me so much I’d want to die. But, I will never blame you for that, you know that. You know my love that I have for you, it is just too much, more than I can ever imagine. If you have told me, I will never hesitate to let you go. This is because I just want the best for you, even the best lover. Since last time, I know I am not the girl that you are searching for. I remained silence because I don't want to be left behind. I know deep inside my heart, you are the only that I craving for always, the one that I want. The promise that you made are slowly fading now, and honestly I think I did the right thing by letting you go though it hurts me badly. I wish I will never fall in love again, Never again. I don't wanna love again because I know, I will never love another when I am still in love with you. How can I be with other when you are still within me? Tell me. I wish, love will never find me no more in this life time. Love is just too hurts for me. I am so sorry...

My prince, please tell me you don't love me anymore because your silence has devastated me deeply. Please tell me, my life with you is just too tough and we are not meant to be even though it will tear me apart. Why can't you just give me an answer? So, I can live my life my way, forget you completely and perhaps one day, I will have the courage, standing in front of you, telling you: I don't need you anymore but I still love and care about you as my friend.

You are my friend, but you can't be my boy friend <---- This is the fact. And, I hope you will forever remain as my best friend within my heart because you are my everything. Saranghae. This is how I feel for him. By the way, it is a nice song. You should give it a shoot. ^ - ^


Wonder Girls - FRIEND

And this too, from SS501 - NEVER AGAIN.



P/S: Actually I am happy for you instead of blaming you. B, you have found your happiness and i really hope the best for both of you. No matter who is staying beside you, as long as she loves you, I will be happy for you. This is because at least there is some one that always loves you and cares for you and this is what I want the most for you - HAPPINESS.


~ Snow Princess ~